This is the beginning of an amazing journey. I want to give you the most valuable gift. I want to give you freedom from your old reality and from the self. I help you to become a Nezman. Nezman is the king of his or her universe. Nezman has no fear, regret, or shame. He or she is full of love for self and others.
This blog belongs to those who want to question everything and rebuild their belief systems brick by brick on the most reliable foundations. Those who want to understand how their personal reality (their personal universe) is constructed. Nez was my teacher. I share with you his ideas through a blog format. My attitude toward you is pure love the same way that Nez' attitude was toward me. This is a zero-sum game though. Only those who make it to the peak of this mountain will benefit from the blog's teachings. If you do not have time, focus, and hunger for it, do not step in this path. You will need open-mindedness, perseverance, focus, and intelligence to reach there and become the master of your own reality. It is not a part-time job, and not many would be able to reach there. To benefit the most, readers need to familiarize themselves with the definitions of certain words that are used in this blog (in definition section).

7/24/2018

The Feeler’s Algorithm

When considering an individual, there are three interacting realms:
W1: Hardware level
W2: Software level
W3: Qualia level, the feeler’s algorithm (a mathematical algorithm that turn mathematical relationships without considering the value of contributing components into feelings)
W1 body (which is part of W1 as a whole) gives rise to W2 body (individual's thoughts, memories, and so on). Then individual W1 and W2 bodies give rise to W3 (which is the individual's qualitative experiences). All W1, W2, W3 compositions are interconnected with some mysterious and deterministic laws and mathematics. Sciences like physics, chemistry, biochemistry, and so on try to address the laws and mathematics of W1. Psychology tries to discover W2 and W3 laws and mathematics.
The most mysterious and magical phenomenon happens when W1 and W2 compositions give rise to creation of certain qualitative experiences in W3.
This means that W1 and W2 compositions give rise to different tastes and consequently different experiences (because of those tastes). The feeler's algorithm is the standard of evaluation that creates those tastes and complex preferences. The feeler's algorithm transforms quantitative W1 and W2 bodies to qualitative W3 experiences.
It is hard to exactly define feeler's algorithm.
A unique set of mathematics originates from your W1 body, as well as your W2 body, and evaluates every composition that it looks upon.
It is impossible to separate the content of W1 and W2 bodies from the feeler's algorithm. In other words, the standards of evaluations is formed partly of the composition is judges. The content of W1 and W2 bodies gives rise to the feeler's algorithm, and when the feeler's algorithm judges W2 content, both the feeler's algorithm and W2 content changes.
For instance, all fundamental memories of experiences of pleasure and pain in W2 through some unknown mathematics contribute to creation of the feeler's algorithm (its tastes and standards of aesthetics) and at the same time the same W2 compositions are judged by the feeler's algorithm. Again a creature judges the creator. This is a dynamic two-way interaction. When a new component is introduced to W2, the composition of W2 changes, and then the feeler's algorithm changes, and consequently the feeler judges the same W2 composition and try to change it toward a more preferable composition. This is dynamic interaction continues until it reaches an equilibrium. However, the feeler's algorithm cannot remain unchanged for long since the castle of thoughts (as a part of W2 body) is a ever-changing composition that every brick is interacting with other bricks. The castle of thoughts usually incorporate many contradictory ideas that can end its stability (they can make it chaotic like a boiling pot). The concept of thesis, antithesis, and synthesis applies to castle of thoughts. W2 as a whole is a composition of contradictory components, and as W2 body changes, the feeler's algorithm changes.
Eventually every preference that a conscious being has is an outcome of the feeler's algorithm (no matter he wants pleasure, pain, W1 control, or certain meanings). The magic of aesthetics lies in a mathematical evaluation of every composition with feeler's algorithm.
The feeler's algorithm and the feeler itself are the most mysterious.
Understanding X and the feeler's algorithm imply that even when a person pursues an external goal and want to make certain changes in W1 realm (such as building a beautiful mansion), it is still an internal goal. Success in achieving that external goal (in this example building that mansion) creates certain preferable feelings for the feeler. The content of W1 and W2 bodies of that person has made such an external goal a symbol of pleasure or meaning. That person attaches scenarios of pleasure and meaning to that external goal.
The feeler's algorithm is deterministic. It is an unknown mathematical algorithm that turns mathematical relationships into preferences and experiences without considering the value of contributing components. When this mathematical evaluator of composition wants to compute the feelings, it takes into account the basic blocks of negative and positive feelings (pleasure and pain). This means, for instance, a vulture may use the same computational mathematics, but its deļ¬nition of pain and pleasure (that root in its W1 hardware) are different than a human. For a vulture, a rotten flesh is beautiful because its W1 hardware find the smell and taste of rotten flesh preferable.

Most People Cannot Tolerate Themselves

Nezman has the most beautiful self-image. When you become beautiful. When you like your self-image, you can enjoy solitude.
For most people, loneliness is intolerable. It is the ugliness of their own self-image that makes loneliness so horrible for them.
Human is a social animal. Their self-image constructed organically through interaction with others. Every member of your society is a mirror that reflects a small portion of your image. Your self-image partly shaped by others. Solitary confinement gradually robs a prisoner from his or her self-image. Moreover, some people escape their own self-image by gazing at a beautiful character (idolizing and lionizing another person). They get lost in another person because they cannot tolerate themselves.
Nezman knows that self-image is a W2 construct, and it is an important part of W2 composition. Nezman knows that self-image affects the outcome of X. That's why the first step toward becoming a Nezman is to control your own self-image. External feedbacks will not define you anymore, only you decide who you are.

Why Do so Many Gods and Religious Experiences Exist?

Student: Why do so many gods and religious experiences exist?
Nez: What do you mean by god? The word god can refer to two things. First an unknown or even unknowable entity out there. You cannot say anything about unknowable entity. Second the image of that unknown entity formed inside your minds. This image and definition is a personal W2 construct. That's why, no two individuals have the same image of that unknown entity, and we have a variety of gods in different religions. Interpretation of the state of affairs in the world provides clues to god's attributes. Since there are a lot of ways to interpret the world, there are many contradicting attribute for gods. Such interpretations make you the creator of the image of God in your own mind. Those who construct a benevolent God in their W2 usually have higher hopes for a promising future than those who create a revengeful God.
Your beliefs (as part of your W2 composition) shape your reality. The religious experience is a constructed reality, and it can be comforting, pleasurable, and meaningful. There are myriad of ways to create religious and spiritual experiences. People practicing different religions experience different spiritual experiences. Some see their relationship to their god so real (and heaven so accessible) that allow themselves to kill other people in the name of their own god.
The major problem with such experiences is that when someone gets used to see the reality from just one narrow viewpoint, the person neglects the perspective of others. Such a person fails to understand the magical machine that creates such experiences (namely X). Such a person is blind to creative power of X in creating a spectrum of realities and experiences.
X is an ongoing miracle. X is the closest thing to unknowable god (if such a thing exists). Understanding X is the most import thing to know the essence of universe. After Nezman understands X, he or she will create his own version of the most beautiful god.

X Is an Astrolabe That Helps Nezman to Navigate Through the Vast Ocean of Mysteries

There was a time when religions could successfully burry the fundamental contradictions of life by the use of myths, faith (comfortable beliefs), and dreams of eternal pleasure and meaning. Later science debunked the myths of religions and weakened the religions’ grip on reality. The efficiency and success of science in answering how questions in W1 created the illusion that science can find answers for the fundamental questions of life. In fact, science may never be able to provide such answers. Science is most successful in helping us to understand the mathematical relationship in W1. Other Realms remain more unknown and mysterious, and they have different mathematics. Parts of these other realms cannot be said or thought; they should be felt. And this makes them even inaccessible to any scientific investigation for a foreseeable future.
Uncertainty and ambiguity in the 3 realms are overwhelming. X is an astrolabe that helps Nezman to navigate through the ocean of mysteries and uncertainties. X is Nez’ discovery through years of meditation. X is beyond science. When one talks about such a mysterious concepts, one cannot use anything other than metaphors to convey the gist of it. Even those metaphors can be dangerous if they are taken as their surface value. One should discard them when the meanings are conveyed. For instance, one understands a mathematical formula through the set of numbers. The numbers are examples that try to illustrate how the formula works. The numbers are not as important as the relationship between those numbers.

How Questions, Shallow Why Questions, and Deep Why Questions

Nez: Science deals mostly with the answer to how questions and shallow why questions. The answer to a shallow why questions creates the illusion of certainty. However, the real mystery lies in deep why questions. The answer to many deep whys remains irrelevant to science. Every how Question eventually leads to a why question, and every shallow what question leads to a deep why question. And the answer to deep why questions remain unknown. Therefore, we live an ocean of unknown and mystery. We prefer the illusions of certainty because the illusions give us comfort. We are surrounded with mysteries and miracles, but we are oblivious to them (like a fish that doesn’t know it is in water).
Only after one discovers the magnitude of those whys, he or she understands that how arbitrary the constructed reality is. W1 is unknown in core and full of mysteries. W2 is unknown (maybe unknowable) with inaccurate copy of W1. The gravity of unknown gives you a huge blank canvas to paint your own version of reality. You are standing in front of a white wall of unknown. No painter has ever had such a humongous white wall to paint his or her mural on. It is the time to break the limits of your imagination and creativity.

The God Construct

The concept of God is a challenge for the limits of your imagination. The idea of god is a W2 construction, and like any W2 construction, it gives rise to an experience and feeling. Religions introduce a great, complex, and beautiful god. However, because of the need for control and expediency, they create a god with contradictory characteristics.
Believing in such an infinite concept and thinking about it create a spiritual experience. Many religions count such an experience as a proof of their legitimacy.
But any sublime, magnificent, and infinite W2 concept can create an impressive W3 experience. That's why followers of different religions have the same adherence to their own God.
In fact, it is the magic of X in action. A beautiful and grand W2 composition gives rise to an awe-inspiring reality and experience.
The concept of god is your construct. You create your own God. You imagine a god with certain attributes, and then you feel this W2 composition. The more imaginative and creative you are, the greatest your God would be, and consequently, the greater your spiritual experience would be. The concept of god evolves throughout history. In the past centuries, many other constructs have become more powerful than the concept of god. For instance, having money and being extremely wealthy has stolen the limelight from the concept of god wherever capitalism rules. However, the concept of money dwarfed the concept of god without providing such transcendental spiritual experiences.