You Cannot Deeply Understand the Malleability of Reality Unless You Pass Through Your Heaven and Hell

Only after experiencing the most euphoric experiences and the bottomless darkness of depression one can really understand the malleability of reality.

Nezman analyzes his past extreme experiences in order to understand the magical power of the machinery of X (and to gain control over his future experiences).

Your Attention Defines Your Reality, but What Is Outside of Your Attention Gradually and Surreptitiously Undermines Your Reality.

The bubble has a vast inner surface with patches of W1 and W2 lenses that have been created in the course of one’s life. The window of attention at any moment defines what portion of the inner surface of the bubble contributes to construction of your reality. As the window of attention changes, the W1 and W2 content entering into hologram lens changes. Hologram lens is where the inputs of W1 and W2 bodies give rise to the stream of reality. Perhaps in an unconscious level, what is outside the window of attention also enters hologram lens. Many times, at a happy moment, when your focus is on the most positive scenarios of present and future, negative feelings creep in, but you cannot explain the source of vague unhappiness.
Depression is the smell of the whole inner surface. Single windows of attention may seem fine, but the whole picture has no meaning. Depression is partly caused by what is outside your window of attention. A depressed person may feel sad at a moment that should feel the happiest, and he cannot fathom why.
Nez: Your window of attention defines your reality, but what is outside your window of attention gradually and surreptitiously undermines your reality.