The Depression and a Faulty Hologram Lens: the Depressed Gets Lost in Oneself

There are things out there in W1. Our evolutionary body works as an interpretative lens that registers and creates a personal W2 model of those external W1 things and events. Our W1 and W2 bodies give rise to a stream of reality. Different W1 and W2 bodies give rise to different realities. An intolerable, ugly, hopeless, or meaningless reality can also be an outcome. In such cases, one or both of these components (W1 and W2 bodies) may be the cause or causes. We call such experiences depression. Sometimes, one unfortunate event is enough to destroy the castle of thoughts. Other times, the person gradually grasps his or her mortality, which makes many scenarios of future meaningless or irrelevant. Even W1 body can be the culprit (such as an illness or chronic pain). A depressed person thinks that the world out there is intolerable (and the source of the problem), but the problem or problems lie inside the self (W1 body or W2 body).

Depression is a lingering and resonating scenarios of pain, ugliness, and meaninglessness in W2 (especially in L1 and L3). Since anything in W2 is just an inaccurate interpretation (or an internal model of W1), depression is one persistent illusion.The depressed person’s mind cannot imagine anything other than inescapable scenarios of past, present, and future pain and suffering (sometimes eternal suffering). A depressed person reviews the past memories with new flawed pessimistic lenses. The person forgets once he or she was living in a happier and more beautiful reality. All happy experiences fade away. A faulty hologram lens can make all past, present, and future events ugly. The depressed feels imprisoned in a concrete and inescapable ugly reality but, in fact, is stuck in the self.

Nezman is immune to depression. Nezman does not punish oneself for improbable and unknown scenarios of future pain because Nezman knows that the scenarios of future pain and suffering construct an illusive reality full of suffering that ruins this moment. For Nezman, only present pain exists (pain felt at this moment through the physical body). Nezman gets prepared for L1 future scenarios, but never lets L1 or L3 future scenarios hijack his or her reality. For Nezman, depression is one interpretation among infinite number of possible interpretations. Nezman’s W2 is open to new interpretations as Nezman is creative like a child.

The Most Important Piece of Knowledge for a Conscious Being Is Knowing That Its Conscious Experience Can Be Controlled by the Conscious Being

Consciousness is a gift. We are thrown into consciousness. We suddenly find ourselves conscious. The most important piece of knowledge for a conscious being is knowing that the conscious being can control its conscious experience.
Things exist, but we don't know why. We just register how things exist, but the meaning of things are defined by how we feel about them and how our past experiences and feelings are associated to those things. W1 exists, and we are also part of that W1 (our W1 body is part of W1 as a whole). W1, in core, is unkown or even unknowable. Our W2 registers W1, and our W3 experiences are the closest to us. For many, the machinery of X (in which quantitative content of W1 and W2 bodies give rise to our conscious experience) is an automatic and uncontrollable process. Knowing that one can control one’s qualitative experiences is the first step toward becoming a Nezman. The deep knowledge of X enables Nezman to gain mastery over his or her own body, own W2 interpretations, and own conscious experiences of stream of reality.

Our Hardware and Software Can Give Rise to a Small Portion of the Spectrum of Realities

The reality that we are experiencing is just one interpretation among infinite number of possible interpretations, yet our W1 body (our hardware) and our W2 body (our software) can give rise to a small portion of the spectrum of possible realities. To understand the limitation of our W1 component, just take a look at the way your eyes give rise to the experience of colors. We are almost blind since only 4 percent of light spectrum is visible to us. Sensitive cells inside our eyes are blind to 96 percent of light’s wavelengths. In fact, we create a partial construct of what is out there, yet it seems like a perfect reality to us. Many other realities with different qualitative experiences could be constructed with different W1 body components (hardware).

The persistent illusion that we perceive is limited by the ability of our W1 body component. We experience the world through the lens of W1 body (our hardware), yet many of us cannot imagine that different experiences are even possible. Many people look at the sky, yet there is no way to know whether they see the same blue color. Contribution of W1 body to construction of reality is mysterious and miraculous.

Most people assume that their experiences are universal and concrete. They fail to understand that their realities are arbitrary and dependent to their W1 bodies. The same is true about W2 body components. Your belief systems and your culture create one lens that contributes to your reality. Culture is a mass indoctrination. Many different belief systems can give rise to many different realities.

Nezman knows the reality he or she is experiencing is only one arbitrary interpretation among many. Nezman takes control of W1 body and W2 components as much as it is possible. Eventually, Nezman looks at W1 and W2 as a ladder to reach the highest W3 experiences.

You Fall in Love with Your Own Self-Made Constructs: What Makes Your Object of Affection Desirable Is Inside You

Love at the first sight? Infatuation? You meet someone, and immediately you feel strong attraction toward that person. How much of what you see and love is out there, and how much of it is inside you? How much of what you feel toward the object of your affection is really coming from that object? What increases your heart rate when you see the object of your affection?
You receive very little information from the person, yet huge constructions are made. Negligible bottom-up flow of information gives rise to sizable desirable constructions, but a lot comes from you (and not the person). Your past memories and interpretive L3 lenses transform small input into glamorous constructions. These lenses are so powerful that small input can create an idol. In fact, you fall in love with your own self-made constructs.
Many times, L3 lenses create false associations by overgeneralization. L3 lenses store your own golden ratios (proportions that you find beautiful because of your W1 body or because of acquired taste through past associations).
Every memory associated with pleasure and beauty creates a lens that affects your future interpretations. These small lenses melt together and form a bigger lens.
Every single thing that you want and find attractive is a package of attributes that in your memory (and your lenses) are associated with pleasure. Every new memory of pleasure is a chain that creates a new goal lens (desire lens).
In fact, the more powerful your memory, the more your future is taken hostage by the pleasurable and painful memories of past experiences. Every generalization or glamorization is an automatic outcome of such organic lenses. Nezman digs deep into making of W2 lenses (L2, L1, and L3 lenses) in order to take control of autopilot mechanism that gives rise to tastes and exaggerated constructs.

Metaphor Therapy

Every person lives in a constructed reality (the mechanism that constructs personal reality will be explained in depth in this blog). A person experiences a self-made reality; however, the person who is immersed in this experience fails to see the mechanism that constructs the realty (like a fish that can’t see water). It is difficult to understand the machine that gives rise to understanding itself. Metaphors are tools that can help a person to comprehend the unexplainable. Though, understanding a concept through metaphors needs powerful imagination. Once the concept of X was understood, one can detach oneself from the experience and gain control over the experience of the reality. In fact, whenever one experiences the abyss, one can shatter the solidity of that reality by remembering that all are constructions, and whenever one experiences bliss, one can intensify the experience of that reality by forgetting about the mechanism.
Depression is imprisonment in a extremely solid reality. For the depressed, the outcome of X is ugly and meaningless (full of scenarios of future pain and suffering). The cause of depression is either in W1 body (hardware malfunction rooted in your physiology) or in W2 body (software malfunction rooted in your psychology and your belief system).
Metaphor therapy, which provides a deep understanding about the machinery of X, can enable an individual to shatter the solidity of that horrible reality. Treating depression by metaphor therapy takes a long-time and intense intellectual labor. Metaphor therapy is an ideal treatment for intelligent individuals. Nevertheless, it is a bumpy road because, at first, it makes every reality an illusion. This creates a serious crisis (accompanied by pessimism or nihilism). Later, when the person gained a deeper understanding of X, he or she becomes equipped with tools and criteria to separate different realities from one another. Finally, the person learns how to evaluate any experienced reality. The person learns to analyze the components of W1 and W2 bodies, and eventually gains power over the outcome of that constructed reality. For Nezman, depression is one persistent illusion (where the stream of reality gets stuck on one reality).

The Difinition of God in 3 Realms

Student: What is God?
Nez: God in which realm?
In W1 realm, the God (if it exist separate from us) is unknowable. In fact, everything in W1 is unknowable. We can register some W2 impressions (on the surface of our bubble) of W1 entities. The God as a W1 entity is unknowable. We construct some models of W1 entity in W2 by the help of our primitive evolutionary common sense. We use weak tools of inductive and deductive reasoning (as well as principle of uniformity of nature) to make such models, and we forget how unreliable these tools are.
In W2 Realm, gods are W2 descriptions of some unknowable W1 entities. They are just a bunch of attributes, mostly contradictory, anthropomorphic, and primitive. Millions of images of god have been created in this way, and they are just some man-made illusions that are evolving over time.
In W3 Realm, those powerful and divine W2 images give rise to unique extreme religious experiences (the experience of god). It is natural that W2 image of infinity give rise to powerful experiences of fear, joy, or ecstasy.

Quantity Gives Rise to Quality; This Is the Ultimate Miracle

The real miracle happens where quantity gives rise to quality. When beams of light enter your eyes and create the experience of color red. When certain touches become the experience of orgasm. When a chemical becomes a taste. This is the boundary of three realms. Mystery is the gateway of experience where W1 and W2 give rise to W3. The qualitative W3 experience is the most miraculous and mysterious.

Money Is a Tool to Exchange Potential Preferable Experiences

We use currencies to buy and sell things, but the ultimate things that are exchanged are preferences of the two parties involved in the exchange. We use money or other means of exchange to facilitate the trade of our preferences. Money makes fulfillment of some preferences possible.
In fact, by exchanging money, you give the potential of fulfillment of your preferences to someone else. You are buying a product or service in order to make a preferable change in your W1 body or W2 body. For instance, you buy an air conditioner to keep your body temperature (W1 preference) at your desirable level, or you buy insurance policy because you think that you are more prepared for unexpected future events (W2 preference).
The ultimate goals lie in W3. When you donate money, you provide W1 preferences for others in exchange for W2 preferences for yourself. When you buy a beautiful painting, you buy a W1 composition that can strike a chord with certain W2 compositions inside you and make you feel good.
Any currency’s ultimate goal is to exchange preferred qualitative experiences.

We Have Tax Brackets, but We Don’t Have Philanthropy Bracket or Selfishness Brackets

W1 has its own sets of mathematics (certain W1 mathematics describe the physical world). W2 and W3 have their own sets of mathematics, but thoughts, meanings, and feelings are not easily quantifiable. W2 and W3 mathematics are personal, yet people have a lot in common.
Our current socioeconomic system completely ignores W2 and W3 mathematics. Tax system, for instance, has a lot of mathematical formula for calculating tax. Tax is not a loose term, but philanthropy is a loose term. We have tax brackets, but we don’t have philanthropy brackets, selfishness brackets, love brackets, or hate brackets. Why philanthropy shouldn't be well defined mathematically. What percentage of philanthropist’ asset was donated and how it served others’ preferences. Philanthropy is also a mathematical relationship between the value of fulfillment of your own preferences and those of others’ preferences. Why selfishness shouldn't be bracketed. Why hate shouldn’t be bracketed? Why shouldn’t companies, billionaires, and millionaires who are hiding behind trusts (and various means to conceal their wealth) not be evaluated by selfishness brackets?
Our current socioeconomic system encourages winner-takes-it-all attitude. Winner takes it all is also a mathematical relationship. Capitalism is a machine that generates wealth, but by some adjustments, it can spread the wealth more beautifully. Currently, a minority enjoys capitalism’s wealth disproportionately. Different adjustments such as higher tax may spread the generated wealth to majority. Even if such adjustments make the whole system less efficient, still the whole system could be much more beautiful.
There is a mathematics of beauty. The feeler has some inclination toward certain proportions. There are some golden ratios for our species. Historically, the ancient and native tribes used to invade other tribes if they become disproportionately wealthy. Some proportions are ugly or intolerable, and some proportions are preferable. People can reach a consensus about the mathematics of beauty. For instance, no human being under any circumstances should own more than y times of the poorest. The minority of winners (who take it all) justifies inequality by the benefits of the system, but nothing can justify ugliness. Many beautiful systems can be devised. Even if such socioeconomic systems have lower efficiency), they provide much better human experiences for the majority. Nezman accepts inequality, but extreme inequality is ugly by any standard.

You Decide What Is Fair, and No One Judges You Other Than Yourself

Nature is not fair. Physics is not fair. W1 reality is not fair. Fairness is a decision that you make. Fairness is a W2 meaning. Fairness is not out there in W1. Fairness is one interpretation of the feeler judging certain W1 or W2 compositions. Fairness is a preference of the feeler based on unique W1 and W2 bodies (and no one has the right to judge the feeler). As people vary in W1 and W2, their definition of fairness also varies.
Nezman knows there is no absolute fairness yet tries to create the most beautiful balance between preferences of the self and the preferences of others.

Disillusionment of Love: You Glamorize, Idolize, and Worship a Person Because of Your Own Pleasure

You glamorize, idolize, and worship a person because of your own pleasure. You receive such an addictive and pleasurable feelings from that illusion that you ignore all negative real feedbacks that suggest that your idol is not perfect (and sometimes is even grotesquely flawed). The real problem is that you do not want to let that beautiful illusion disappear because those illusions are the source of your comfort. But a healthy reaction would be that you separate the person from the ideal beauty that that person was representing in your mind. In other words, you should separate W1 person from the W2 image of that person in your mind. You should tell yourself "that I still love the beautiful image of that idol that I created in my mind (W2 image), but that person (W1 entity) was not even close to the idol that I really love. I will continue to search for such an idol" and " I am thankful that the flawed person was a conduit that helped me to create such a beautiful W2 image, but I avoid this person from now on because If I keep in touch with such a flawed person, I enter the realm of love and hate."
Why the realm of love and hate? Because after disillusionment, you start to focus on the flaws. This flawed idol makes you angry, confused, or even mad. On the one hand, you love that idol because it has been a source of addictive pleasure for you for such a long time. On the other hand, you hate that person because he or she caused you pain. This person destroyed parts of your castle of thoughts, your self-confidence, and your self-image. You blame yourself and doubt your own sound judgment because you chose such a flawed person. Moreover, all these make you pessimistic toward your future relationships. Continuing to see the flawed person destroys the perfect mental idol that you have created. You need to keep that standard of beauty (and the image of an angel) as an aspiration for your future relationships and as a beacon of hope for future. After all, these dreams and hopes (even illusions) are our only source of extreme pleasure and hope. Even unrealistic dreams can serve us. Many times, we dream the world, as we want it to be, not as it is. However, if we easily proved wrong, we suffer much more.

We Tend to Interpret the World in Ways That Give Us the Greatest Comfort and Pleasure

Nez: We live in a constructed reality created by our W1 body (our hardware, biology, and so on) and W2 body (our software, belief systems, and other tools that we use to interpret the world). We tend to automatically interpret the world in ways that give us the greatest comfort and pleasure often at the expense of contradicting L2/W2 (the scientific objective reality).
For instance, people believe in religions because religions give them comfort, yet no religion has any evidence or proof for its metaphysical claims. The younger and the more imaginative you are, the greater this effect is.
The same is true when you glamorize, idolize, and worship a person. You do it because of your own pleasure. You receive such an addictive and pleasurable feelings from that illusion that you ignore all negative real feedbacks that suggest that your idol is not perfect (and is even grotesquely flawed). The real problem is that you do not want to let that beautiful illusion disappear because those illusions are the source of your comfort.

In Order to Change the Reality and Feelings of This Moment, All Interpretations of The Past and Future Should be Revised

What is II (integrated image)? II is the total outcome of W2 and W1 that is put in front of the feeler. II is the raw input that gives rise to qualitative experiences of the feeler. In II, the past, present, and future have the same power. They are mixed together to help construct II to entertain or torture the feeler. For the feeler, the scenarios (illusions) of the past and future are as important as the perception and sensation of now.
Why do I call them illusions of the past and future? Because past memories are mostly emotionally charged and distorted. They are false interpretations (L3/W2) and have no use in serving the feeler in future. Future is also unknown. It is a mystery waiting to be unfolded. A future that is predicted based on (and as continuation of) false past interpretations is doomed to be an illusion. Many individuals are prisoners of realities that constructed by illusions of the past or the illusions of the future.
Nezman knows that the present is the most real, the past is half-accurate at best, and the future is unknown. Nezman knows that in order to change the reality and feeling of this moment, all interpretations of the past and future should be revised.

Existing Languages Fail to Describe 3 Realms

Our languages have evolved organically. Languages are W2 entities that try to describe W1 and serve our W3 preferences. Our existing languages are inefficient tools in describing 3 realms. We need a new language (with new vocabulary) in order to describe X and the three realms successfully. One day such a language will come, but in the meantime, I have coined new words and metaphors in order to convey the meanings effectively. New vocabulary and metaphors help you understand yourself, 3 realms, and your reality.

The Bombardment of Useless and Irrelevant Information

The bombardment of information and variety of ideas does not let people choose their own belief systems. An ordinary person with a full-time job neither has the expertise nor the needed time to evaluate and choose one’s own belief system. The first thing you should do is to protect yourself against the bombardment of useless and irrelevant information. The limitation of your W1 and W2 bodies leaves no room for useless and irrelevant information. A useless information is something that does not serve the feeler. For instance, most information that is broadcasted through mass media is aimed at controlling masses and swaying them toward the agenda’s of ruling class that serves the interest of a minority.
The knowledge that serves the feeler is understanding how your feelings are created and how they are controlled. To this end, you should learn about the existence of the feeler and the machinery of X. To understand X, you need to understand three realms, three layers of W2, and the metaphor of hologram lens. Then you will understand how miraculously the feeler evaluates W1 and W2 compositions and gives rise to your qualitative experiences.
The knowledge of X is your first priority. The knowledge of X is the foundation of your castle of thoughts. Learning the 3 layers of W2 will help you categorize ideas based on their use. You will learn how to draw a distinction between the ideas that accurately describe W1, the ideas that are concocted by W2 machinery (and have no root in W1), and the ideas that serve the feeler.
Nezman categorizes importing information and ideas meticulously. Nezman masterfully organizes and distinguishes between his or her own facts, interpretations, and values.

The Metaphor of Hologram Lens

The hologram lens is a metaphor that tries to capture how reality is constructed. Your stream of reality is similar to a hologram construction that comes out of your hologram lens. Your W1 body composition and W2 body composition gives rise to the hologram lens. Every piece of information you receive changes this lens. Every change in your biology affects this lens. Your interpretations about your past and future affect this lens. As the hologram lens transforms, the reality of your universe and definition of the self transform.
Sometimes, these changes are so gradual that it takes a long time for people to realize they have changed. Nezman tries to register any change in W1 and W2 bodies. Nezman carefully guards his or her own hologram lens. The metaphor of hologram lens is the closest concept to what people call it soul.

New Self-Image, New Reality

To reach to your highest potential, you should burry your past and shatter your old self-image. You cannot step into a new reality unless you have a new self-image. Your old definitions impose serious limitations. Until you haven't completely forgotten who you have been, you cannot break away from past realities. However, it is not easy at all. You should be very selective and keep all L2 part of your W2. For instance, you should not forget your strengths and advantages.

5 Types of Relationship to God

5 types of relationship to god:
1- The person loves the God. The person is in harmony with the indoctrinated image of God in his mind.

2- God hates the person. The person makes a mistake and thinks that the God must be angry, or he interprets his bad luck as the sign of the God's anger. Since the person cannot easily bring down the concept of God, the person blames himself and destructs his or her self-image. The perfect God does not love the person anymore. This justifies the punishment.

3- The person hates the god. God's punishment becomes overwhelming (or the feeling of shame and guilt becomes unbearable). The image of the God starts to break down. The beautiful God becomes cruel, betraying, and ugly. Contradictions shatter its perfect image. The person understands that all images of God were illusions.
The person has two paths: revising the image of God or denying it completely. The person feels betrayed and disappointed. He or she destructs the concept of God.

4- The person kills the God. Death of God is the death of meanings. Nihilism conquers the person. The person becomes depressed and endures a reality with no value and meaning. W2 is a chaos and the hologram lens creates the darkest compositions possible.

5- The person creates the God in his own image. The God becomes irrelevant, but the image of God becomes malleable. The image of god becomes man's creation and a means that serves the feeler toward the stream of beauty.

For Nezman the image of God captures the highest degrees of contradictions. Nezman's God is the most beautiful construction (despite the ugliest contradictions). Nezman's God challenges the limitations of Nezman's imagination (the painted image of infinity), but it is not very far from Nezman's self-image.

The Concept of God, by Definition, Is Immune to Any Investigation

The concept of god, by definition, is immune to any investigation. A god who is greater than what you think and you can imagine becomes unknowable. This concept takes us into a vicious circle.
The concept of god is irrelevant. The only relevant thing is our preferences.
W2 (which our mind is part of that) is a mirror that reflects W1. It is a calculator (or a computer) that reconciles the preferences of the feeler with possibilities of W1. W2 serves the feeler. And the feeler has it has opposing and contradictory preferences that makes the job of W2 so difficult (considering the limitation of W1). The only guide is our preferences.

Everything Becomes Boring

The feeler wants novelty. It gets bored of any W1 compositions because W2 becomes numb and changes. If you had enough time enough, everything experience would have bored you. Everything becomes boring or mundane after a while. The feeler plus infinity equals a desire to becoming everything. Deep inside, you want to be everything.