Fear Kills Creativity

Fear is a tool that helps the ruling class to control the masses. Fear kills creativity. In the state of fear, people cannot think straight, and scenarios of future pain and suffering hijack their attention. Fear is one of the most effective tools to control masses because the fearful mass would do anything to avoid those scenarios. For instance, the fear of homelessness and poverty (or fear of losing the current lifestyle) makes people work day and night (without having enough time for critical thinking). They become specialists instead of generalists. When a person’s W2 is full of indoctrinated ideas, the person can create a limited number of scenarios of future. He is doomed to live in a mass reality. This fear can also be the fear of a neighboring tribe, another nation, or even fear of terrorism. Fear of terrorism is yet the most creative tool. The ruling class hates unleashed creativity because individuals with relevant education and creativity can envision a different future that the ruling class has less control or no control. The ruling class, would go as far as, to support real terrorism to create the fear of terrorism in order destroy mass’s creativity and control them. State of fear is a reality that is constructed on perceived or real threats that imply scenarios of future pain and suffering.
Nezman does not feel fear. Nezman only reacts to a real threat.

Thinking Discipline

People, who talk more, think more because language is the tool of thinking, but this does not mean that they are thinking correctly. A large part of their talking and thinking may be repetitive, superficial, fantastic, irrelevant, incoherent, or inconsistent. Thinking correctly needs education. Becoming a Nezman begins with thinking discipline. First you need to know different categories of ideas and territories of thinking. Thinking is a W2 phenomenon, in which the person paints on the inner surface of the bubble. One can project anything on the inner surface of the bubble. You can think whatever you want and say whatever you want. But your statements and thinking can be evaluated from two different viewpoints. First, how much does it correspond to the W1 compositions out there? Second, how much does it serve your W3 preferences? People think and believe things that are pleasing and comforting (even though those things contradict the W1 reality), but sooner or later, they will face the consequences of those fantastic projections. Similarly, people think very realistically, and they experience meaninglessness and nihilism. In W2, you make a small model of W1 reality. If this model is not an accurate model of state of affairs in W1, you are delusional (and W1 reality hits you hard). On the contrary, if you only create an accurate model of W1 reality, you become a prisoner of a concrete, meaningless, and boring reality. Nezman forms an accurate model of the known parts of W1, while he or she creates his own unique model of the unknown parts of W1, W2, and W3. He has a realistic outlook to W1, while he lives in the most fantastic reality.
To do such an impossible, you need first to learn how to think (and explore W2). You need to learn how to interpret the past and how to dream about the future.
Nezman knows that registering an accurate W1 is a tool, and not an ultimate goal. Nezman knows that W1 is unknowable in core, and science or any other tools aimed at serving W3 preferences. For Nezman, thinking is a means that allows your W3 preferences to be fulfilled. Nezman controls his thoughts and all the W2 contents. The content of W2 can only be controlled if you learn thinking discipline. Later in thinking discipline, I will explain three layers of W2 (and their corresponding realities). Nevertheless, thinking and everything else is aimed at creating the most beautiful qualitative experiences for the feeler because the feeler is the soul of your soul.

The Creative Power of Your Imagination Is the Closest Concept to the Concept of God

Nez: God? Are you talking about the God? Your idea of a god or the God is a vague imagination and a bunch of characteristics that you are longing for. If there is a god, it is beyond your imagination. If there is a god, the closest thing to it is the creative power of your imagination itself. Thinking about a god or gods is just an exercise for your imagination. You are just testing the limitation of your imagination. If you take a look at the evolution of the concept of god throughout history, you see how arbitrary this concept is. Thinking about the God in man's imagination leads to a vicious circle because infinity is a meaningless concept in W1 (infinity is a W2 concept). Do not bother yourself with the image of a god, gods, or the God because eventually you are the creator of that concept. Here I talk about my personal god, but you are free to create your own differently.
You can create any god that you want, but do not let your god to be much bigger than you. Expand your god and expand your self-image in parallel to your god; otherwise your self-image is destroyed, and you become nothing more than a spec of dust compared to the magnitude of your god. Experiencing humility is part of the rollercoaster, but when the concept of god dwarfs your self-image, you become powerless and insignificant. You become a prisoner of W1 mathematics and W1 reality. However, there are other types of mathematics; W2 and W3 mathematics contradict W1 mathematics. You should live in all three realms. You should adopt three mathematics appropriately and in a timely manner.
If there is a god with infinite power, he has no fear of making you a demi-god. If a god is really omni-potent, it does not need any praise. Such a god would let you to be the creator of your own reality. In fact, the god has created you in its own image. You are a part of god. You can become a god, yourself. No one can judge you other than you. Such a god does not need to judge you. Why do you imagine god as an external entity? You are everything. You are magical. You are the soul of the
matter. You are the soul of the universe. Never devalue yourself, and go neck to neck with your god.
My god is the greatest. What is greater than a god who gives you everything (you makes you identical with itself)? What is greater than a god who makes you the creator of your own reality? If you are not a god, for sure, you are a demi-god.

Nez’ Astrolabe

Nez: science is the most successful interpretation of the unknown reality, but it is always open to revision. Science registers and explains what is happening out there. Science cannot guarantee that the laws of nature have to work uniformly at all times. We may wake up one day in a world that the sky is not blue anymore. Past observations tell us what has happened so far, and we observe and form a variety of hypotheses accordingly. We utilize induction and deduction to form our successful theories in different branches of science. Science is a successful tool to predict and influence the states of affairs in the three realms. Though, the more we move from W1 toward W3 the predictability and success of science diminishes. As we move toward W3, we step into uncharted territories. There, you need an astrolabe to navigate. Science may or may not become successful in W2 and W3, as much it has been successful in W1. Until then Nez’ astrolabe rules.

Do you Believe in Miracles?

Student: Do you believe in miracles?
Nez: I think that I am a miracle. Should a miracle believe in miracles? Sure. I have seen the magic of X. I am a reality-creating machine. What is more miraculous than that? Thinking and feeling are both magical.
I am a magic, and I believe in unbelievable things. When it comes to unknown and mysteries, I decide what to believe. I decide what reality I like to live in. The greatest miracle for me is the experience of beauty and pleasure. I believe we have the capacity to experience the highest degrees of beauty and pleasure, not just animalistic pleasure, but pleasurable beauty and meaningful beauty. Not a static beauty, an ever-changing beauty. An evolving beauty that changes as our W1 and W2 bodies change. A beauty that is defined differently as we move through the landscape of values.

Self-Betrayal

The most important thing for you is to discover your genuine preferences. Some preferences are short-lived. Some preferences are superficial, and some preferences are deep-rooted in your W1 and W2 bodies. One reason that a person’s self-image gets tarnished by shame and guilt is that the person sacrifices more important preferences for less important preferences. The person feels to be betrayed by himself or herself, and it is the worst feeling. Nezman has a hierarchy of preferences.

Nezman Returns Invincible From the Darkest Place in the Universe

Student: Who are you?
Nez: I am a piece of crystallized thinking. I dove deep into my consciousness. I remained there for 10 years until I discovered X (a reality-creating machine). What I did there was the most difficult thing that a person can do. I questioned everything. I ruined my castle of thoughts. I transformed from a creature to a creator.
I witnessed how my hologram lens is built. I went through years of education, meditation, and bravery. I risked my everything. Did you know that the destruction of the castle of thoughts and hologram lens takes you to the black hole of consciousness? It is the darkest place in the universe, in which everything becomes meaningless. Can you tolerate such darkness and meaninglessness?
It is not a place for the weak, for the unintelligent, and for the faint-hearted. It is the most dangerous for those who have powerful imagination but weak intellect. Similarly, the unimaginative cannot see the depth of the darkness and the zenith of magnificent; therefore, he does not discover anything there.
It is an abyss that you lose everything. You lose your self-image, your beliefs, and your universe. You become nothing (but you gain the potential to become everything). The reality become so unnatural and unbearable that you wish that you seize to exist.
But if you are strong, something keeps you to go on. Something in the strong wants more. The hope of a paradise lives deep inside the strong. The strong trusts the universe. In the pitch-black tunnel, the desire for light fuels your journey. You will overcome the darkness through education, meditation, and creativity. Discovering X will be the beginning of your return to light. It may take you years to return, but you return enlightened, wise, and the master of your own reality. You return as a Nezman. You accept the change and uncertainty. You swim freely and happily in the ocean of unknown. You understand that you are a part of a larger composition, and one day you will join it again.

Nez the Apex of Generosity and Love

What is the most expensive and valuable gift someone has ever given to another? Nez generously gave me my universe. How can I repay such a gift?
He empowered me to create my own beautiful reality. He redefined me. He took me into his own reality and showed me the creative power of X inside me. One day he asked me, “What is the best future you can imagine for yourself?” I said, I don’t know.” He continued, “The Bible and Quran's heavens? Think again. You become everything. You go beyond pleasure and pain. You can simultaneously experience everything and be everything. Your a part of god, and a demi-god yourself.”

Pleasure, Beauty, or Both

Student: What is the most important thing in the world?
Nez: Creation of beauty and pursuit of beauty are the most important things in the universe. You have preferences. You discover the preferences that lead to the most beautiful qualitative experiences most of the times.
Student: What do you mean most of the times?
Nez: To make it clear, I give you an example. Drugs may temporarily provide you with ecstatic experiences, but they also bring more harm and suffering in long-term. On the contrary, you go though the hardships of education, but you reap the benefits for a lifetime.
Student: What is beauty?
Nez: Beauty for you is what you prefer most of the times. Beautiful is a thing, a scene, an idea, or anything that the feeler’s algorithm evaluates as preferable. As I mentioned before, your W1 and W2 bodies give rise to your feeler’s algorithm and your taste in beauty. Therefore, when your W1 body changes or when your W2 body changes, your taste in beauty changes. For instance when you become educated in visual art (gain visual literacy), you can enjoy much more from the nuances and beauty of artworks. W1 body also contributes greatly to the feeler’s algorithm. You find meat delicious, while a cow finds vegetation delicious.
Even a person’s inherited evolutionary biology as a part of W1 body affects your preferences. Why most mothers love their children? Because a mother has such an evolutionary or acquired preference. For a mother devotion is a beautiful preference.
Student: What is the difference between pleasure and beauty?
Nez: Beauty and pleasure are almost the same. Every preferred composition either creates W1 pleasure or W2 pleasure. W2 pleasure is a beautiful meaning that mind perceives. Pleasure of body is the preference of W1 composition, and pleasure of mind is a beautiful meaning, preferable by your W2 composition.

Ebbs and Flows of the Stream of Reality

When you master the architecture of reality, you understand the process of construction of reality and the qualitative feelings (and experiences) attached to that reality. This insight empowers you to adjust your reality despite the limitations of W1 external compositions and your W1 internal composition (your W1 body). X has two contributing compositions W1 and W2 compositions. The more the limitations of W1 are, the more control on W2 compositions is needed. When W1 compositions and W2 interpretations of those W1 events are extremely intolerable, some autopilot defense mechanisms detach a person from reality.
The ultimate goal is to have the feelings that you want. That W3 experience of that feeling is inside you. That W3 experience is created when certain W2 and W1 compositions are in place. For instance, a person needs certain amount of money in his bank account to feel safe. If he saves that amount in his bank account, W1 external composition is achieved. Then his knowledge of the availability of that fund changes his W2 composition. He interprets money as safety and power. Money for him implies future scenarios of pleasure and meaning. Finally W1 and W2 compositions create the desired feeling of safety for him. Can someone feel safe with much less money? Sure. Can that feeling of safety be an illusion because many other things can go wrong? Sure. We swim in an ocean of uncertainty. We are surrounded by unknown. Every W2 model of W1 is a degree of illusion.
We do everything in life to feel our preferable feelings either in the form of pleasure or beautiful meaning. For instance, one may love the pleasure of having sex or eating more than anything else, or one may find beauty and meaning in devoting his time and effort to provide a better life for his or her own family.
You reach to a point that you can control your own experience of reality because you are capable of changing the reality itself. This understanding provides you with varying degrees of freedom depending on your mastery of X.
The least benefit that one may get from X is siphoning the unbearable solid reality that imprisons and tortures the person, and at best one can become so creative and free that decide to ride a roller coaster of reality to experience the highest beauty. Such beauty is only achievable in the ebbs and flows of a stream of reality that goes up and down like a rollercoaster.

Faith Is Inevitable

Atheism is shortsighted and misguided. Faith is inevitable. Many atheists argue that they need scientific evidence for existence of god, but the question of god is irrelevant to logic and scientific inquiry. Our common sense, reasoning, and intellect inducts and deducts the facts and mathematics of W1 to make sense of things, yet W1 is unintelligible in core by the standards of our common sense (for instance quantum physics). Moreover, all of induction, deduction, and principle of uniformity of nature are weak. They argue that having faith is a sign that our emotions and desires have beaten our reasoning. However, the level of uncertainty and unknown in W1, W2, and W3 realms is so overwhelming that a large part of the picture of reality is left blank. We inevitably become creators and painters of the empty portion of the picture of reality. We interpret the unknown and fill out the blank parts. Those interpretations are faith. Even the most intelligent person who tries to remain completely agnostic (and tries to leave the blank part completely blank) will succumb to automatic instinctual machinery that will fill up the empty parts of reality with pitch black and nothingness. Non-existence for life forms (who have a lot of preferences) is darkness and meaninglessness (a kind of nihilism). This shows that one has faith no matter what. The only question is the source of that faith. Whether this faith is indoctrinated by others, or it is self-made. Nezman creates his own faith. He creates his own hologram lens, his own God, his own morality, and his own reality. His faith is flexible, revisable, and upgradable. A faith that easily incorporates new facts about 3 realms. Nezman’s God is the zenith of his imagination at any time. At times, a crazy God like the contradictions of 3 realms and the man himself.

Life: Survival Is a Value Because It Provides an Opportunity for Beautiful Qualitative Experiences

Life and survival are valuable because they provide an opportunity for beautiful qualitative experiences. Life without pursue of beauty has no value. Many consider survival the ultimate value. But survival seems like a series of accidents in the course of evolution that only those who were fit to survive passed their genes. In terms of W2, in the path of evolution, those who valued survival survived. This does not make survival an absolute value. It only means that we are the descendants of those who were fit (physically and mentally) to survive. We are descendants of those who valued survival and life. All this means that our evolutionary hardware and software is evolved and filtered for survival generation after generation. We are though surviving machines.

The Feeler’s Algorithm

When considering an individual, there are three interacting realms:
W1: Hardware level
W2: Software level
W3: Qualia level, the feeler’s algorithm (a mathematical algorithm that turn mathematical relationships without considering the value of contributing components into feelings)
W1 body (which is part of W1 as a whole) gives rise to W2 body (individual's thoughts, memories, and so on). Then individual W1 and W2 bodies give rise to W3 (which is the individual's qualitative experiences). All W1, W2, W3 compositions are interconnected with some mysterious and deterministic laws and mathematics. Sciences like physics, chemistry, biochemistry, and so on try to address the laws and mathematics of W1. Psychology tries to discover W2 and W3 laws and mathematics.
The most mysterious and magical phenomenon happens when W1 and W2 compositions give rise to creation of certain qualitative experiences in W3.
This means that W1 and W2 compositions give rise to different tastes and consequently different experiences (because of those tastes). The feeler's algorithm is the standard of evaluation that creates those tastes and complex preferences. The feeler's algorithm transforms quantitative W1 and W2 bodies to qualitative W3 experiences.
It is hard to exactly define feeler's algorithm.
A unique set of mathematics originates from your W1 body, as well as your W2 body, and evaluates every composition that it looks upon.
It is impossible to separate the content of W1 and W2 bodies from the feeler's algorithm. In other words, the standards of evaluations is formed partly of the composition is judges. The content of W1 and W2 bodies gives rise to the feeler's algorithm, and when the feeler's algorithm judges W2 content, both the feeler's algorithm and W2 content changes.
For instance, all fundamental memories of experiences of pleasure and pain in W2 through some unknown mathematics contribute to creation of the feeler's algorithm (its tastes and standards of aesthetics) and at the same time the same W2 compositions are judged by the feeler's algorithm. Again a creature judges the creator. This is a dynamic two-way interaction. When a new component is introduced to W2, the composition of W2 changes, and then the feeler's algorithm changes, and consequently the feeler judges the same W2 composition and try to change it toward a more preferable composition. This is dynamic interaction continues until it reaches an equilibrium. However, the feeler's algorithm cannot remain unchanged for long since the castle of thoughts (as a part of W2 body) is a ever-changing composition that every brick is interacting with other bricks. The castle of thoughts usually incorporate many contradictory ideas that can end its stability (they can make it chaotic like a boiling pot). The concept of thesis, antithesis, and synthesis applies to castle of thoughts. W2 as a whole is a composition of contradictory components, and as W2 body changes, the feeler's algorithm changes.
Eventually every preference that a conscious being has is an outcome of the feeler's algorithm (no matter he wants pleasure, pain, W1 control, or certain meanings). The magic of aesthetics lies in a mathematical evaluation of every composition with feeler's algorithm.
The feeler's algorithm and the feeler itself are the most mysterious.
Understanding X and the feeler's algorithm imply that even when a person pursues an external goal and want to make certain changes in W1 realm (such as building a beautiful mansion), it is still an internal goal. Success in achieving that external goal (in this example building that mansion) creates certain preferable feelings for the feeler. The content of W1 and W2 bodies of that person has made such an external goal a symbol of pleasure or meaning. That person attaches scenarios of pleasure and meaning to that external goal.
The feeler's algorithm is deterministic. It is an unknown mathematical algorithm that turns mathematical relationships into preferences and experiences without considering the value of contributing components. When this mathematical evaluator of composition wants to compute the feelings, it takes into account the basic blocks of negative and positive feelings (pleasure and pain). This means, for instance, a vulture may use the same computational mathematics, but its definition of pain and pleasure (that root in its W1 hardware) are different than a human. For a vulture, a rotten flesh is beautiful because its W1 hardware find the smell and taste of rotten flesh preferable.

Most People Cannot Tolerate Themselves

Nezman has the most beautiful self-image. When you become beautiful. When you like your self-image, you can enjoy solitude.
For most people, loneliness is intolerable. It is the ugliness of their own self-image that makes loneliness so horrible for them.
Human is a social animal. Their self-image constructed organically through interaction with others. Every member of your society is a mirror that reflects a small portion of your image. Your self-image partly shaped by others. Solitary confinement gradually robs a prisoner from his or her self-image. Moreover, some people escape their own self-image by gazing at a beautiful character (idolizing and lionizing another person). They get lost in another person because they cannot tolerate themselves.
Nezman knows that self-image is a W2 construct, and it is an important part of W2 composition. Nezman knows that self-image affects the outcome of X. That's why the first step toward becoming a Nezman is to control your own self-image. External feedbacks will not define you anymore, only you decide who you are.

Why Do so Many Gods and Religious Experiences Exist?

Student: Why do so many gods and religious experiences exist?
Nez: What do you mean by god? The word god can refer to two things. First an unknown or even unknowable entity out there. You cannot say anything about unknowable entity. Second the image of that unknown entity formed inside your minds. This image and definition is a personal W2 construct. That's why, no two individuals have the same image of that unknown entity, and we have a variety of gods in different religions. Interpretation of the state of affairs in the world provides clues to god's attributes. Since there are a lot of ways to interpret the world, there are many contradicting attribute for gods. Such interpretations make you the creator of the image of God in your own mind. Those who construct a benevolent God in their W2 usually have higher hopes for a promising future than those who create a revengeful God.
Your beliefs (as part of your W2 composition) shape your reality. The religious experience is a constructed reality, and it can be comforting, pleasurable, and meaningful. There are myriad of ways to create religious and spiritual experiences. People practicing different religions experience different spiritual experiences. Some see their relationship to their god so real (and heaven so accessible) that allow themselves to kill other people in the name of their own god.
The major problem with such experiences is that when someone gets used to see the reality from just one narrow viewpoint, the person neglects the perspective of others. Such a person fails to understand the magical machine that creates such experiences (namely X). Such a person is blind to creative power of X in creating a spectrum of realities and experiences.
X is an ongoing miracle. X is the closest thing to unknowable god (if such a thing exists). Understanding X is the most import thing to know the essence of universe. After Nezman understands X, he or she will create his own version of the most beautiful god.

X Is an Astrolabe That Helps Nezman to Navigate Through the Vast Ocean of Mysteries

There was a time when religions could successfully burry the fundamental contradictions of life by the use of myths, faith (comfortable beliefs), and dreams of eternal pleasure and meaning. Later science debunked the myths of religions and weakened the religions’ grip on reality. The efficiency and success of science in answering how questions in W1 created the illusion that science can find answers for the fundamental questions of life. In fact, science may never be able to provide such answers. Science is most successful in helping us to understand the mathematical relationship in W1. Other Realms remain more unknown and mysterious, and they have different mathematics. Parts of these other realms cannot be said or thought; they should be felt. And this makes them even inaccessible to any scientific investigation for a foreseeable future.
Uncertainty and ambiguity in the 3 realms are overwhelming. X is an astrolabe that helps Nezman to navigate through the ocean of mysteries and uncertainties. X is Nez’ discovery through years of meditation. X is beyond science. When one talks about such a mysterious concepts, one cannot use anything other than metaphors to convey the gist of it. Even those metaphors can be dangerous if they are taken as their surface value. One should discard them when the meanings are conveyed. For instance, one understands a mathematical formula through the set of numbers. The numbers are examples that try to illustrate how the formula works. The numbers are not as important as the relationship between those numbers.

How Questions, Shallow Why Questions, and Deep Why Questions

Nez: Science deals mostly with the answer to how questions and shallow why questions. The answer to a shallow why questions creates the illusion of certainty. However, the real mystery lies in deep why questions. The answer to many deep whys remains irrelevant to science. Every how Question eventually leads to a why question, and every shallow what question leads to a deep why question. And the answer to deep why questions remain unknown. Therefore, we live an ocean of unknown and mystery. We prefer the illusions of certainty because the illusions give us comfort. We are surrounded with mysteries and miracles, but we are oblivious to them (like a fish that doesn’t know it is in water).
Only after one discovers the magnitude of those whys, he or she understands that how arbitrary the constructed reality is. W1 is unknown in core and full of mysteries. W2 is unknown (maybe unknowable) with inaccurate copy of W1. The gravity of unknown gives you a huge blank canvas to paint your own version of reality. You are standing in front of a white wall of unknown. No painter has ever had such a humongous white wall to paint his or her mural on. It is the time to break the limits of your imagination and creativity.

The God Construct

The concept of God is a challenge for the limits of your imagination. The idea of god is a W2 construction, and like any W2 construction, it gives rise to an experience and feeling. Religions introduce a great, complex, and beautiful god. However, because of the need for control and expediency, they create a god with contradictory characteristics.
Believing in such an infinite concept and thinking about it create a spiritual experience. Many religions count such an experience as a proof of their legitimacy.
But any sublime, magnificent, and infinite W2 concept can create an impressive W3 experience. That's why followers of different religions have the same adherence to their own God.
In fact, it is the magic of X in action. A beautiful and grand W2 composition gives rise to an awe-inspiring reality and experience.
The concept of god is your construct. You create your own God. You imagine a god with certain attributes, and then you feel this W2 composition. The more imaginative and creative you are, the greatest your God would be, and consequently, the greater your spiritual experience would be. The concept of god evolves throughout history. In the past centuries, many other constructs have become more powerful than the concept of god. For instance, having money and being extremely wealthy has stolen the limelight from the concept of god wherever capitalism rules. However, the concept of money dwarfed the concept of god without providing such transcendental spiritual experiences.

The Degree of Consciousness and Having Preference Determines the Value of a Living Organism

Nezman distinguishes two categories of phenomena. Fist, things that have preference without conscious experience. Second, things that have preference within conscious experience (such as animals). This is the most important dividing characteristic in the universe, and the degree and quality of this conscious preference creates the essential and intrinsic value of things and entities.

No Everyone can Tolerate Pitch-Darkness Before Reaching Light at the End of the Tunnel

How much darkness can you tolerate before reaching the light at the end of tunnel? Becoming a Nezman is not easy. You have to unlearn many of your fundamental beliefs first. You have to demolish your castle of thoughts and build a new one (brick by brick).
The process of deconstruction takes you deep into darkness, confusion, and depression. When have no beliefs, everything becomes meaningless. Erasing W2 composition from X equation creates a blank reality. When you suspend all your beliefs, W2 composition does not contribute much to create your reality. This path makes things worse for you in the short-term. It makes your reality unbearable for a while, but the minute you understand X, the heavy weight of this dark and ugly reality vanishes into thin air. As you build your castle of thoughts and gain control over your W2 composition, you come out from the other end of the tunnel, and you see things clearly. You become the creator of your own reality. You gain control over your own constructed reality.
As I mentioned before, becoming a Nezman is not a path for everyone. Your reality will become the darkest. Not everyone can tolerate that much darkness. Though the rewards (of joy and beauty) at the end of the tunnel are indescribable, it is not a path for everyone. Only few emerge as Nezman from the end of this tunnel. They are unstoppable. They are free and in control of their own reality. They have survived the pitch-black and fear nothing. They enjoy the magic and beauty of X. They know they are droplets of creativity in the magical ocean of X.

A Child Begins with W2 Mathematics but End Up with W1 Mathematics in Adulthood

Nez: As a child, you begin with the flexible W2 mathematics. You evaluate and measure the world inside-out. A child thinks that he or she has endless power, energy, and time. For a child 1=1000. As the child gets older and experience W1, he or she begins to understand the limitations that W1 imposes. Adult learns that one W1 mathematics exists. For a realistic adult 1=1.

Understanding X

Nez: You live in a unique reality at this moment. Only you have access to your experience of that reality at this moment. No one, other than you, can tell you what you are experiencing now because it is a unique experience created by your W1 and W2 compositions. I teach you X, and you gradually learn how your W1 and W2 compositions construct your reality. You gain control over your own reality. For those who are living in a concrete hell, I provide an ejection seat and parachute that help you turn off their reality. Understanding X melts down your solid reality. Your reality becomes malleable and flexible. You may even enjoy what you considered a nightmare. Why do people pay to go to a horror house in Disneyland? Because they know it is not real and they like excitement. Understanding X makes every experience exciting for you. You define the meaning of every event, and you alter your reality whenever it becomes intolerable. Understanding X is a lasting solution. It is not a temporary escapism provided by alcohol or drug use. Nezman gains control over his own reality. Nezman melts the reality and pour it into a new mold.

Nezman’s Religion

Who eats fast food? Those who are too poor or too busy to cook a delicious and nutrient homemade food. Organized religions are like fast food for masses. They have served their purpose for majority of population so far. They have brought harmony and comfort to many. They made masses homogeneous and controllable. However, Nezman creates his or her own personal religion and personal god.

Becoming Temporarily Depressed Is an Inevitable Part of the Journey

Depression is more prevalent among those who try to understand the whole picture of reality. Those who question their own realities inevitably will discover the contradictions of the three realms. These contradictions destroy their castle of thoughts. Becoming depressed is an inevitable part of the journey for those want to become the master of their own reality. The stream of reality like a rollercoaster provides you with the most euphoric and nightmarish experiences. Only when you experience the ups and downs of this rollercoaster, you may understand that all realities are constructions. Juxtaposition the experiences of your hell and your heaven reveals how flexible your stream of reality is. I call the mechanism of construction X. Understanding X frees you from any concrete reality.
Depression is a state of having no possible dream. For a depressed person, scenarios of future seem painful and meaningless. For the depressed, the hope for pleasure and meaning is dead. Imagination of a depressed person gets stock on limited scenarios. Lack of imagination also leads to depression.
Depression is caused by a solid reality created by wrong interpretive W2 lenses. New W2 composition (for instance, new W2 lenses) will create a new reality that incorporate hope of future pleasure and meaning. Causes that root in W1 internal composition such as chronic pain can make a person depressed. Understanding X and altering your W2 and W2 bodies will create new realities and depression will loosen its grip on you.

The Metaphor of Bubble

Nez: Are you familiar with the metaphor of bubble? You look at the outside world from your unique angel. Your body is part of W1 (which I call it W1 internal composition). Your W1 gives rise to your W2 composition (W2 body). You make a model of W1 inside your W2 composition. I call it your bubble. I do not want to call this bubble a familiar name such as soul, spirit, or psyche because it has its own meaning. When you meditate enough on the metaphor of bubble, you will have a rather clear understanding of it. Inside your bubble your universe is constructed. You can control your own constructions inside of the bubble.
All the input from W1 is registered on the inner surface of this semi-transparent bubble. Our common sense (which is the product of accumulated experiences) helps us to construct a seemingly accurate model of universe. We paint a model of the W1 on the inner surface of this bubble. If what one paints on the inner surface of the bubble is a good model of W1, one is a realistic person who can predict W1 events accurately. But many have painted a distorted image of W1 on the inner surface of their bubble. Some have painted something totally detached from the state of affair in W1 (we call them delusional or mad). What you paint on the inner surface of your bubble creates your own reality. By painting the inner surface of the bubble, you become the painter and the creator of your own version of reality. Every one of us is a creator knowingly or unknowingly. All the interpretation, all the associations, and all the attributions related to a topic create a lens on the surface of the bubble that alters your perception of that object. This interpretations apply to every object or event in the past, present, and future. For a Hindi, a cow has religious significance, but for an American it is just a source of food. Death had a different meaning for an ancient Egyptian compared to an atheist in 21 century. Everything inside the bubble is a construction. The concept of God also is a construct that evolves by different religions through eons. The bubble is the home to historical interpretations about variety of concepts that accumulated layer by layer on back of each other. Bubble is full of inaccurate paintings drawn many generation before. Paintings that distort the immediate perception of W1. Nevertheless the bubble is a second-hand painting of W1, but some bubbles are strangely distorted.
One major problem is that everyone starts painting the inner surface of the bubble from early childhood. Indoctrination in one’s childhood leaves permanent marks on the inner surface of the bubble and limits the creation of a flexible reality by a creative mind in adulthood. Dogmatism formed in childhood is a great obstacle to overcome. Only a person who is willing to interpret the world in new ways can reach the highest levels of freedom. Only one's childlike imagination can help one to replace the old painting with new paintings.