This is the beginning of an amazing journey. I want to give you the most valuable gift. I want to give you freedom from your old reality and from the self. I help you to become a Nezman. Nezman is the king of his or her universe. Nezman has no fear, regret, or shame. He or she is full of love for self and others.
This blog belongs to those who want to question everything and rebuild their belief systems brick by brick on the most reliable foundations. Those who want to understand how their personal reality (their personal universe) is constructed. Nez was my teacher. I share with you his ideas through a blog format. My attitude toward you is pure love the same way that Nez' attitude was toward me. This is a zero-sum game though. Only those who make it to the peak of this mountain will benefit from the blog's teachings. If you do not have time, focus, and hunger for it, do not step in this path. You will need open-mindedness, perseverance, focus, and intelligence to reach there and become the master of your own reality. It is not a part-time job, and not many would be able to reach there. To benefit the most, readers need to familiarize themselves with the definitions of certain words that are used in this blog (in definition section).

8/25/2018

Become the Super-Hero of Your Own Reality

A person constructs two images of the self. One image is formed on the inner mirror surface of the bubble. This image is how the person sees himself or herself. Another image is the image that one projects on the outer surface of bubble (persona that others outside the bubble can see). Both of these images are arbitrary constructions. These images are usually created partly by how others see us and partly by our interpretations over time (ever since childhood). Self-image of most people, at best, is an inaccurate, false, flawed, or  illusive construct.
Your image on the outer surface of others’ bubbles is created by others’ values (and not your values), yet it affects your self-image. You should not allow these images affect your self-image because how others judge you has no value for your feeler (others have their own values, their own interpretative lenses, and their own standards of beauty). You should control your own self-image. You should not let others define you. Nobody knows who you are (not even you). Nobody knows what your future potentials are. Any self-image can be true, depending on how the future unfolds. Nezman does not allow others’ values and opinions define him or her. Nezman is the super-hero of his or her own reality.

8/23/2018

Three Sources of Self-Image

Self-image is a collections of ideas about the self. It defines the main character of your own story. Your self-image is closely linked to your Le1-Le5 scenarios of future. This means that self-image can positively or negatively affect your hologram lens and your stream of reality. Your self-image inside the bubble comes from three different sources.
1. Your image on the inner surface of your own bubble: This is how you define yourself for yourself. The inner surface of the bubble is like a mirror that you can see your own reflections. These reflections may come from other constructs inside the bubble (or other L1,L2, and L3 lenses). How your constructed god or gods evaluate you or how your conscience judges you affect your opinion about the self.
2. What you project on the external surface of your bubble: This is your persona (what others see on the outer surface of your bubble). This image may differ from your image on the inner surface in order to gain power through pretense, deception, or camouflage. For instance, by pretending adherence to society's moral codes, you may gain certain advantages and benefits. Many individuals hide their weakness and cowardliness under a facade of brave macho appearance.
3. What you see from the reflection off the external surface of others' bubbles: You never know how another person evaluates you because you are not inside his or her bubble. You can only see what others want to show you. No matter whether this image of you (their feedback) is a sincere and honest reflection or not, this feedback has no real value and should not affect your self-image. Even if it is their honest opinion about you, their opinion, mostly likely, is the outcome of their L3 and L1 lenses and has no value for you.
Self-image has a self-fulfilling prophecy effect. You will become what you think you are. Therefore,
you should control all the three sources of your self-image and define a protagonist that makes your scenarios of pleasure and beautiful meaning achievable.

All Contradictions Are Inside the Bubble (W1 Has No Contradiction)

All contradictions that we are experiencing are inside the bubble. Out there (in W1), there are no contradictions. W1 seeming follows some laws (that we call natural laws), but inside the bubble many different laws exist. The surface of the bubble composed of many different interpretative lenses. These lenses create contradictory images of what is out there (W1).
The content of W2 is constantly interacting to give rise to one coherent hologram lens. Such efforts fail when many inherent and acquired contradictions exists inside the bubble. As a result, no coherent hologram lens created. Our failure in solving these fundamental contradictions eventually leads to construction of a dark reality called depression. In unconscious and subconscious level, the whole W2 is in a turmoil. When you are depressed, your mind works hard to resolve these contradictions in order to come up with a coherent hologram lens to no avail.

Damage to Self-Image Causes Fear and Anger

Any thing that damages self-image causes fear and anger. For instance, losing the war of wills causes fear (and consequently anger) because it tarnishes the self-image. Not having a capable protagonist limits the future scenarios of pleasure and meanings. In other words, anything that threatens self-image implies the future scenarios of pain and ugliness. Moreover, the future scenarios of pain and ugliness is the source of fear and consequently anger.

Methods of Mass Control Inside and Outside of the Bubble

1. Traditional method of control inside the bubble: A judgement center inside your bubble (like an eye in the sky) watches your every move and judges your every act (even your every thoughts and intentions). Such a constructed judgment center could be the concept of an omnipotent, omnipresent, omniscient, and omnibenevolent God. It could also be your conscience or other constructs. From childhood, you are indoctrinated by such constructs, and such constructs can judge you and create the feelings of guilt and shame in you. The religious leaders determine what such a god expects of you, and they gain control over you. The traditional method would create a coherent mass reality to control masses. However, after religions failed to create powerful mass realities (as they could do before), other methods were devised.
2. Modern method of control outside the bubble: The judgement center is outside bubble. It could be other people, or it could be new technologies. This method does not care about the things inside your bubble. It aims to control your behavior. CCTVs and surveillance technologies are examples of such control.
3. Modern method of control inside the bubble: If creating coherent and believable mass realities (such as religious realities) seems impossible, then what is the best way to tame a society whose members live in a variety of realities? the answer is that confused, indifferent, or even depressed individuals are much more controllable. Bombarding a person with barrage of profound, contradictory L1, L2, and L3 illusions would make the person confused (for instance, in mass media, there are many instances that profound questions of life are answered by laymen). Confusion leads to meaninglessness. In fact, the modern life style does not leave enough time for relevant education (and thinking) for individuals. In fact, specialization does not make a person wiser. The person needs to learn thinking disciplines (and have well-balanced L1, L2, and L3 layers) in order to digest and process the barrage of confusing information and thoughts. Such confusion can direct an unprepared individual (consciously or unconsciously) toward escapism. Comfort of escapism is better than a dark meaningless reality full of confusion and contradictions.

8/22/2018

The Closest Thing to the God Is the Machine That Creates the Image of God Inside the Bubble

Student: I have had a strange relationship with God after certain unfortunate events in my life. I became introvert and focused on inner surface of the bubble. I started asking why questions. I asked God, why did such things happen to me?" I was angry at god. I challenged him. I loved him. I fought him. I feared him. I shouted at him. I experienced so many contradictory feelings and attitudes toward god, but I finally came to realization that I have been shouting at myself in a mirrored sphere. My gods, my guilt, my self-image, and every other thing inside the bubble are just some reflections constructed by me.
Nez: Yes you are the only creator inside the bubble. Everything inside bubble is your construction. You have not been shouting at God. You have been shouting at yourself (your self-made image of God). It is frightening to realize that all along the way, you have been alone and isolated inside a mirrored bubble talking with your own constructions and illusions. However, after your fear subsides, you realize how magical your imagination is. You become a powerful creator of your own constructions. All these show that you are getting close to becoming a Nezman. After you fully understand X (the machine that creates all those images), you will become the creator of the image of your own god.
X is transcendental. In fact, the closest thing to the ultimate reality or god is the machine that creates the image of God inside your bubble. In fact, the content of your bubble cannot represent god as much as the way bubble works (X) does.

The Scenarios of Pain and Suffering Kill Creativity: Lost In Oneself

Strong emotional experiences deform the hologram lens. One can go through such emotional experiences first-hand or vicariously. Even watching mass media or a movie, as well as reading a book or newspaper,  can create emotional experiences that affect L1 and L3 content. Strong emotional experiences strengthen L3 and L1 and weaken L2 layer.
As gradually L2 weakens, a person whose universe constructed by L1 and L3 lenses gets detached from an accurate image of W1. This could even turn extroverts to introverts. The person becomes blind to what really is happening in W1 (and may dive into escapism or denial). He loses his analytical power to understand W1 state of affairs, and he ends up having no influence on W1. In fact such a person gets lost in himself. He or she becomes the prisoner of his own self-made prison. This disorientation and confusion may make masses indifferent, nihilistic, or even depressed.
Going inside the bubble of an ugly soul and seeing an ugly universe (through his eyes) convey Le1-Le5 scenarios of future pain. Any illustration of Le1-Le5 scenarios of bodily and mental pain can create strong L3 lenses that negatively affect hologram lens. For instance, horror movies strengthen the scenarios of pain. Fear, sexual attraction, and violence have roots in W1 body (and our instincts) and linger in our L3.
One may ask if scenarios of pain and suffering have such negative effects, why is mass media full of such scenarios?
The answer is that the ruling class wants conformity and not creativity. The ruling class spreads these L3 illusions because people who are lost in themselves are much more controllable. Le1-Le5 scenarios of pain and ugliness depict a hell that kills individuals' creativity. After people lost their creativity, they lose their ability to imagine an alternative to the existing social order. A creative individual can imagine a better W1 state of affairs. He or she may question the status quo. When creativity dies and Le5 scenarios of pain are engraved in people's W2,  people's  hologram lens can only constructs hell realities. Obviously, people prefer to live in status quo reality than to live in a hell. The status quo remain the only option for those who lack creativity (and fail to construct a beautiful alternative).

8/21/2018

2 Types of Focus to Find Meaning and Purpose Inside the Bubble

There are 2 types of focus to find meaning and purpose inside the bubble:
1. Outside-in: It is a focus on what exists outside bubble. The person looks at the existing states of affairs in W1 and tries to find meaning and purpose there. The person forms a whole picture by looking at what is out there. He is like a driver who discovers the existing roads out there, and his future path is the continuation of one of the roads that he finds. Such an approach will destroy creativity and leads to being indoctrinated by existing meanings and values out there.
2. Inside-out: The main focus is inside the bubble. One looks for a compass to find or create the greatest beaty. The longest and most beautiful qualitative experience of the feeler is the goal. The person tries to find meaning organically inside.
This is Nezman’s approach. Nezman carefully observes what is out there (and create an accurate map of existing roads out there), but Nezman eventually is free from what is out there. Nezman is a driver who creates his own new roads. He is the creator of meaning, values, purpose, and even the definition of what exists.

Extreme Selfishness Leads to Self-Hate

A narcissist loves himself above all others. A narcissist considers his or her own preferences and desires much more important than those of others. Many societies have narcissistic attitudes and established such organized priority of class preferences over those of another class. For instance, a royal family’s preferences have priority as their birth right.
To the narcissist or the selfish, others are considered means to an end. W1 has some limitations (and scarcity exists), usually success in fulfilling one’s preferences would deny others from their preferences.
Achieving pleasure and meanings for one, may cause suffering for others. The feeler become numb to such pleasure and meanings. No longer blinded by euphoria of such achievements, the person sees his own reflection off others' bubbles. The person understands the consequences of one’s actions. Seeing himself as an agent that inflicts pain to others will make him hate himself.
Nevertheless, this process does not happen to every one. There are individuals who have such deep-seated complexes (or indoctrination) that create such strong lenses that always see others as enemy and do not feel no empathy toward others. They see themselves as the chosen race, the chosen tribe, or the chosen species.

Bubble: The Worst Punishment Is Ignoring Someone

Humans are social beings whose self-images partly defined by the reflection from other bubbles. From the minute, a baby is born, one’s self-image is affected by how others define him or her. People get used to seeing the reflection of self on the outer surface of other bubbles.
Ignoring a person whose definition comes from the feedback of others is the worst punishment. That’s why long solitary confinement is so destructive. The person forgets who he or she is. It robs the person from his own self-image and identity. The lack of self-image makes everything meaningless inside the bubble. Without a protagonist or an antagonist, there is no story. Without no story, there will be no future scenarios of pleasure or beautiful meanings.

8/20/2018

3 Layers of Reality

3 Layers of Reality (3 Parts of W2):
Understanding of 3 layers is the most important part of the journey to become a Nezman. This thinking discipline will help you to understand the making of your current reality. If you are able to pinpoint what part of your W2 body is making your reality unbearable, you can easily change it. W2 contributes greatly to the making of hologram lens that constructs your reality. The content of W2 can be divided into 3 categories (L1, L2, and L3). The content of each category gives rise to a certain type of reality.
L2: This layer captures the state of affairs in W1 (the physical world). In this layer, a rather faithful and accurate reflection of the W1 realm is stored. The more accurate your L2 layer is, the more predictive power you would have.  An accurate L2 provides an accurate model of W1 events that help you achieve your preferences related to W1 external compositions and your W1 internal body.
L2 layer is comparable to science. All branches of science are attempts to create an accurate image of W1 reality.
L1: This layer, addresses the metaphysical aspects of the world. It fills the empty portions of the reality. It is a faith with no way to prove it in W1 (or in L2). Many questions about L1 topics are irrelevant in L2. Focusing too much on L1 theses is waste of time and energy because none of these theses can find meaningful answers in L2. The goal of L1 is to fill the empty portion of the unknown (or unknowable) with personal answers that serve the feeler toward the goal of creating the highest beauty.
3 Layers of Reality
An ordinary person often has serious contradictions and incoherency between the three layers that eventually leads to destruction of castle of thoughts. Many times,  a person's L1 content contradicts those of L2 and L3. However, Nezman, through rigorous thinking disciple, has a coherent W2, whose 3 layers are in total harmony.
L3: The borders between L3 and L1 is blurry. L3 content is associated with past evaluations of the feeler. L3 content is the source of value judgement. For instance, it determines who is handsome or pretty. This layer is the most complex. Intuition, the memory of past emotions in unconscious level, suppressed past desires, and goals (desired scenarios for future) all are affecting the reality construction through this layer. L3, like L1, is a double-edged sword. It could create the most beautiful and the ugliest realities. L3 content can give rise to realities with utter happiness or realities with eternal darkness. It can create strong motivations toward success or indifference leading to utter failure. L3 content can incorporate Le1-Le5 scenarios that are creative, exciting, and ingenious, as well as those that are outlandish, fantastic, or insane.  W1 internal compositions (your physical body) also affects L3. For instance, one's attraction toward the same sex individuals may partly root in biology, but it manifest itself as a value judgement lens in your L3. All L3 content is normative. Present emotions, as well as the memories of past emotions, will affect L3. In many cases, the content of L3 becomes so distant from L2 that it becomes destructive.

8/18/2018

Addictive Love Distorts Reality

Nez: Love is an attitude. Love is the intention to materialize the scenarios of pleasure and beautiful meanings for the the loved one (that could also be the self). Love brings the ultimate pleasure and beauty, and one's failure to materialize the goals of love causes a lot of pain.
Sometimes L1 and L3 lenses create such a pleasurable and beautiful realities that the the person distorts L2 lenses and steps into fantasy. The more a person experiences pleasure and beautiful meanings from the reality constructed by such L1 and L3 lenses, the more addictive such reality becomes. The person denies W1 and L2 (the accurate image of W1) in order to stay as long as possible in such beautiful reality. However, if the person lives long enough, eventually W1 collides with one's constructed reality.
Student: I can relate to this. there was a time when my powerful imagination created illusions of love in order to construct the most beautiful universe for me. Those illusions became so addictive and strong that I denied any other possible realities. However, when those constructs collided with W1, my castle of thoughts destroyed, and that beautiful reality shattered.
When I look back, I see that I wanted a piece of heaven. I wanted nothing less than the extreme pleasure and ultimate beauty. I tricked myself to believe that I am there because living a moment in such a heaven seemed to be worth a lifetime. I constructed my fantastic version of heaven, and I fell in love with it (and became addicted to it). My small heaven gave me strongest motivations, unstoppable will, and the most beautiful self-image.
Nez: Living in such a concrete reality far from L2 could be very dangerous. You may experience extreme pleasure and beautiful meanings, but later you will suffer much more. Such an intense experience of pleasure and beauty is so addictive that distorts L2 lenses and causes more suffering in the long-run. Collision with W1 may damage your hologram lens for years.
Student: I wanted a piece of that heaven even if it was a costly illusion. Although it was an illusion, it was the most beautiful experience of my life.
Nez: After you become a Nezman, you gain control over the three layers of L1, L2, and L3. You can experience more pleasure and beauty without W1 collision.
Your experience was short-lived, and you were fearful that you may lose it all. As a Nezman, you can decide to stay there as long as you want, and you will have no fear.



Judging Others Is Meaningless

Every individual has a unique W1 body, unique W2 body, and unique interaction with the fountain of events. You can never judge anyone because you can never know how it feels being inside another's bubble. Different W1 and W2 bodies give rise to different streams of realities that are alien to you.
You can only be compared to other versions of yourself. No two individuals can be compared with one another.
Nevertheless, for most people, comparison is an automatical, unconscious, and inevitable process. Such comparison works like a double-edged sword. When you are the winner in the comparison, it boosts your self-image, but as soon as you become the loser in this comparison, comparison destroys your self-image.
Nezman has control over his or her own L1 and L3 lenses and their interpretations. For Nezman, defeats are temporary and stepping stones towards much bigger success. Nothing in outside world can affect Nezman’s self-image. Nezman knows and defines himself or herself despite all external events and comparisons.

8/17/2018

X Is My Astrolabe

Nez: Sailors we using astrolabe as a navigation tool to reach to their destination centuries ago, when science and technology were not advanced enough to make navigation effortless. My navigation tool to explore uncharted territories of consciousness is X.
Consciousness is the most familiar yet the most unknown entity in the universe. Consciousness is a place that the three realms meet. The construction of reality, as well as the conscious experience of reality, cannot be conveyed by the tools of language. Nevertheless, I do my best to shed light on the working of the machine that gives rise to your unique reality. X is my astrolabe to navigate in the unchartered territories of consciousness, and I use some metaphors to help you understand the magic of X. Becoming a Nezman enables you to enjoyably navigate through the ocean of unknown. Your fear is replaced with excitement and awe, your hate with love , and your despair and  hope.

First Extrovert, Then Introvert, and Lastly Extrovert Again

Your self-image, thoughts, interpretations, and memories of past events and past emotions are stored in W2. W2 bodies of most people are like junkyards of outdated thoughts, useless emotions, and suppressed desires. Such content works like a broken lens that contribute nothing valuable to hologram lens. For many, W2 is a collection of comforting and tranquilizing lenses that lead to numbness, laziness, inaction, complacency, and conformity. A period of introversion helps one to correct those lenses. One can pinpoint all lenses that create biases and negative emotional reactions due to past experiences or belief systems. Moreover, one should become introvert in order to understand how the machinery of X works.
One purpose of introversion is correct categorization of thoughts to 3 layers of L1, L2, and L3. While L2 portion of W2 is subject to the least amount of change,  L1 and L3 portion of W2 need serious overhaul in different stages of life. L2 should remain objective and without any judgement or bias. L1 and L3 are there to be filled with your creativity. Mending self-image needs contributions from all three layers though.
Nevertheless, one should become extrovert again after all these corrections. Success in W1 needs a balance between the two modes of introversion and extroversion. Becoming Nezman (and fully understanding of X) requires a long period of introversion (months or even years).
Some of the most successful people switch mode every day. After a day of extroversion (and dealing with W1 reality) would think one or two hours in order to update L2 and plan to influence W1 toward their preferences. They update L2 and plan while avoiding fantasies and comforting escapism.

Matter Is Sacred and Valuable, yet Magical and Mysterious.

Matter can create life, consciousness, pleasure, the experience of meanings, and the experience of beauty; therefore, matter is, sacred and valuable, yet magical and mysterious.
Consciousness is the product of matter plus evolution. The experience of meanings inside the bubble is also such a product. Moreover, consciousness correlates with the form and composition of matter. A new composition creates new consciousness. For instance, using drugs and alcohol changes the composition of the brain by introducing new chemicals to the existing compositions. The new composition creates altered consciousness.
Consciousness may be one potential among many potentials of matter. We are a composition of atoms, but this does not mean that we are just that.  We have found some equations to describe the state of affairs in W1, We do not even know what really matter and energy are. Our effort is aimed at prediction and utilization of this understanding toward our our preferences.
We know atoms in our body come from far away galaxies where they were made billions of years ago, but we are much more than what makes up our bodies. In fact, the whole is different that the parts. We are the matter looking at itself. Maybe still confused, but we have taken our first steps in the path of self-discovery.

W2 Makes an Imperfect Model of Unknown W1: Lowering the Standard of Intelligibility

The standard of intelligibility in an ocean of mysteries:
When Newton explained that gravity is an invisible force that affects matter from distanceit was considered absurd by common sense. Later it seemed natural. What Newton proposed was unintelligible by man's evolutionary mind. Nevertheless, it became a  part of the science. Newton lowered the standard of intelligibility for understanding of W1. Einstein's relativity, quantum physics, and neurological correlations with qualia did the same. They give us a picture of W1 that defies our common sense (which developed through encounter with mid-size realities of W1 in the path of evolution). The laws and capacities of W2 cannot accurately describe the unknown W1. In other words, the model-making capabilities of W2 have serious limitations in describing W1. This shows how our common sense (our basic understanding of W1) is illusory. We are experiencing W1 without knowing its essence, its rules, its laws, its meaning, its potential, and its relation to W2 and the feeler. We are swimming in an ocean of mysteries, and we are pretending (or falsely believe) that we understand W1, W2, and W3.

8/16/2018

Free like an Ancient King, a Modern King, or Nezman

Free like an ancient king, a modern king, or Nezman:
Many ancient kings did whatever they wanted to without shame, guilt, regret, or second thoughts. They did not suppress their desires and lived close to their instincts. Unlike modern kings, they would show their power and kingship to the world. Some even defied gods or introduced themselves as gods or agents of gods. Such kings and their subjects lived in a more harmonious reality.
However, kings today cannot show off their wealth and power to the world. They live double lives. They create mass illusions and charades, and hide behind the walls of their castles and play chess by moving their pawns. It is more mind labor than pure instincts; therefore they hypocrites with a lot of suppression. Kings of our time have much more power, yet they have a much uglier self-image. They may do whatever they want, yet they carry the contradictions of having double lives. A king in hiding is never as free as an ancient king.
Nezman’s freedom is different though. Nezman does not suppress his desires. Nezman gets what he wants because he has control over his own desires. There is a harmony between what he desires and what he gets. He has insatiable appetite, yet he is not the slave of his appetite (his appetite is his slave). Nezman’s insatiable appetite fuels his odyssey. He enjoys the rollercoaster of reality. Both being a king and a subject are part of his journey. No king in history has ever been so free as Nezman because even the most powerful king lives in a rigid reality. Nezman as the master of reality shapes the reality and remains free no matter whether he is a king or a subject. Nezman’s self-image is independent of anything out there.

Metaphor of a Boiling Pot of W2

W2 is like a gigantic boiling pot, whose ingredients constantly interact with each other. As new ideas are poured into this boiling pot, new compositions are created. One has access only to the surface of this pot. Deep inside the pot, the remnants of one’s past ideas, interpretations, and memories have been deposited. Many of those past thoughts, interpretations, and feelings are biased, outdated, inaccurate, or false (do not reflect W1 accurately). In fact, a large portion of the content of this pot is indoctrinated ideas of childhood that corresponds to certain intolerable realities. The realities that rarely are in harmony with W1 and addresse the inherent absurdity or contradictory aspects of W1.
Any disturbance can bring unexpected compositions to the surface. The only way that one can alter the taste of this boiling pot it to add a lot of delicious new ingredients that mask or eliminate the bitter taste of the pot. The pot is like a living body composed of interacting cells. The new ingredients react with the existing ingredients and create new compositions.

8/14/2018

Evolution of Mass Realities Throughout History

Nez: The history of ideas is the history of change and confusion. As dominant ideologies of an era change, the mass realities of that era also change. History exhibits a rollercoaster of evolving mass realities. Throughout history, thinkers have changed their focus many times. In ancient times, thinkers were looking for answer to questions such as Where are we? Who are we? or What is life? But later thinkers’ focus changed to questions such as What should we do? What are right and wrong actions? Depending on how they answered these questions (and filled up the unknown or unknowable), they constructed their own version of reality. Imagine that you were a slave building the pyramids, what reality would you have experienced? For sure, you would have experienced a different reality than that of someone who was witnessing witch-hunt in 17th Century Europe.
Nevertheless, many thinkers claimed that they have found certain and reliable answers for those questions, and by doing so, they created solid heavenly or hellish mass realities. However, all have focused on W1 and W2 (the inner image of W1), instead of focusing on X (the mechanism that gives rise to those realities).
Nezman focuses on X, as well as W2. Nezman explores the world of ideas and dives deep into the history of ideas because every idea corresponds to its peculiar reality. History is a kitchen full of different recipes to construct a variety of realities. Nezman meticulously screen and categorize ideas into three categories (L1, L2, and L3) in order to come up with his or her own answers for those fundamental questions. Nez carefully separates the fuzzy border between the knowable for unknowable. Nezman has the most organized W2. Nezman’s Castle of thoughts (the whole W2 composition) is a masterpiece that gives rise to the most beautiful qualitative experiences.


The Ugliest Thing in the World Is Intention to Harm and Inflict Pain to Others

Nez: For the feeler, intention to harm or inflict pain is the darkest and ugliest composition in the universe. The inner surface of the bubble of such a person is covered with scenarios of past and future suffering. The person is so lost in himself that cannot see other judgement centers. Thick distorted lenses (archetypes and complexes) construct a hell for such a person. This person lives in an inescapable hell and regards the universe and everything in it as one’s own enemies. He is burning inside his own hellish bubble and wants others to burn with him (which he gains satisfaction out of it). There is nothing uglier than receiving pleasure from inflicting pain or destroying beauty in others' bubbles. Nezman tries to eradicate such intention by any means. That’s why having power and control is a must for Nezman.

8/13/2018

Pleasure, a Means That Became an End: 3 Kinds of Pleasure Alignments

Three kinds of pleasure alignments:

1. Alignment of pleasure with survival (Life's alignment with pleasure): Through the course of evolution, only life forms survived whose pleasure was aligned with survival. For instance, the offsprings who did not find sexual activity pleasurable did not pass their genes and became extinct. This means many W1 preferences are the product of natural selection through eons. What you find pleasurable today is what allowed your ancestors survive through millions of years. However, as gradually higher levels of consciousness emerged, meaning gave a new direction to pleasure.

2. Alignment of pleasure with meaning: The developement of memory and imagination in W2 created new forms of pleasure. Memory of pleasurable experiences and preferable composition could construct complex future scenarios, as well as the concept of eternal pleasure (I will address complex future scenarios when I introduce Le1 to Le5 scenarios). As the image of pleasure (or memory of pleasure) became more powerful than the first-hand experience of pleasure, all the problems began. Man became the most confused animal. In other words, as meanings became a major source of pleasure, the mankind's confusion began.

Meanings are the feeler’s evaluation of W2 compositions. The Constructs that incorporate the memory of past pleasurable states seem preferable. W2 compositions can incorporate contradictory scenarios of pain and pleasure (for instance, the past scenarios of pain and future scenarios of pleasure). There is no limit to imagination in this regard. The meaning could be so preferable that a person sacrifice present or short-term pleasure for a beautiful meaning whose future scenarios are preferable. Some of these meanings could become so perverted that they deny and contradict W1 pleasure completely. For instance, some religions create meaningful W2 compositions (that have some preferable future scenarios) and prohibit many carnal pleasures. It may seem ironic because as one breaks down any complex preferable W2 composition, one will find simple carnal pleasures as their building blocks. Pleasure can become a currency in the hand of the creators of meaning (and they can use it as they want). Different religions budget pleasure as it best suits them.

3. Alignment of pleasure with the maximum of preference fulfillment: There is no doubt that meanings can create great pleasures, but an optimum balance between W1 and W2 pleasure is needed to achieve the maximum preferences. W1 pleasure is what our evolutionary W1 body finds aligned with survival, and W2 pleasure is beautiful meanings (the evaluation of feeler of certain W2 composition). Nezman has a healthy balance between W1 body pleasure and W2 body pleasure (beautiful meanings).

In some sense, pleasure and beautiful meaning have close affinity. Pleasure is a preferable experience. Beautiful meanings also provide preferable experiences. In everyday language, beauty is the feeler’s evaluation of a W2 composition (what we feel after seeing a beautiful artwork), but pleasure is what W1 body finds preferable (what we feel when we eat a delicious meal). However, in essence they are very similar because both words describe preferable states.

8/12/2018

The Depression and a Faulty Hologram Lens: the Depressed Gets Lost in Oneself

There are things out there in W1. Our evolutionary body works as an interpretative lens that registers and creates a personal W2 model of those external W1 things and events. Our W1 and W2 bodies give rise to a stream of reality. Different W1 and W2 bodies give rise to different realities. An intolerable, ugly, hopeless, or meaningless reality can also be an outcome. In such cases, one or both of these components (W1 and W2 bodies) may be the cause or causes. We call such experiences depression. Sometimes, one unfortunate event is enough to destroy the castle of thoughts. Other times, the person gradually grasps his or her mortality, which makes many scenarios of future meaningless or irrelevant. Even W1 body can be the culprit (such as an illness or chronic pain). A depressed person thinks that the world out there is intolerable (and the source of the problem), but the problem or problems lie inside the self (W1 body or W2 body).

Depression is a lingering and resonating scenarios of pain, ugliness, and meaninglessness in W2 (especially in L1 and L3). Since anything in W2 is just an inaccurate interpretation (or an internal model of W1), depression is one persistent illusion.The depressed person’s mind cannot imagine anything other than inescapable scenarios of past, present, and future pain and suffering (sometimes eternal suffering). A depressed person reviews the past memories with new flawed pessimistic lenses. The person forgets once he or she was living in a happier and more beautiful reality. All happy experiences fade away. A faulty hologram lens can make all past, present, and future events ugly. The depressed feels imprisoned in a concrete and inescapable ugly reality but, in fact, is stuck in the self.

Nezman is immune to depression. Nezman does not punish oneself for improbable and unknown scenarios of future pain because Nezman knows that the scenarios of future pain and suffering construct an illusive reality full of suffering that ruins this moment. For Nezman, only present pain exists (pain felt at this moment through the physical body). Nezman gets prepared for L1 future scenarios, but never lets L1 or L3 future scenarios hijack his or her reality. For Nezman, depression is one interpretation among infinite number of possible interpretations. Nezman’s W2 is open to new interpretations as Nezman is creative like a child.

8/11/2018

The Most Important Piece of Knowledge for a Conscious Being Is Knowing That Its Conscious Experience Can Be Controlled by the Conscious Being

Consciousness is a gift. We are thrown into consciousness. We suddenly find ourselves conscious. The most important piece of knowledge for a conscious being is knowing that the conscious being can control its conscious experience.
Things exist, but we don't know why. We just register how things exist, but the meaning of things are defined by how we feel about them and how our past experiences and feelings are associated to those things. W1 exists, and we are also part of that W1 (our W1 body is part of W1 as a whole). W1, in core, is unkown or even unknowable. Our W2 registers W1, and our W3 experiences are the closest to us. For many, the machinery of X (in which quantitative content of W1 and W2 bodies give rise to our conscious experience) is an automatic and uncontrollable process. Knowing that one can control one’s qualitative experiences is the first step toward becoming a Nezman. The deep knowledge of X enables Nezman to gain mastery over his or her own body, own W2 interpretations, and own conscious experiences of stream of reality.

Our Hardware and Software Can Give Rise to a Small Portion of the Spectrum of Realities

The reality that we are experiencing is just one interpretation among infinite number of possible interpretations, yet our W1 body (our hardware) and our W2 body (our software) can give rise to a small portion of the spectrum of possible realities. To understand the limitation of our W1 component, just take a look at the way your eyes give rise to the experience of colors. We are almost blind since only 4 percent of light spectrum is visible to us. Sensitive cells inside our eyes are blind to 96 percent of light’s wavelengths. In fact, we create a partial construct of what is out there, yet it seems like a perfect reality to us. Many other realities with different qualitative experiences could be constructed with different W1 body components (hardware).

The persistent illusion that we perceive is limited by the ability of our W1 body component. We experience the world through the lens of W1 body (our hardware), yet many of us cannot imagine that different experiences are even possible. Many people look at the sky, yet there is no way to know whether they see the same blue color. Contribution of W1 body to construction of reality is mysterious and miraculous.

Most people assume that their experiences are universal and concrete. They fail to understand that their realities are arbitrary and dependent to their W1 bodies. The same is true about W2 body components. Your belief systems and your culture create one lens that contributes to your reality. Culture is a mass indoctrination. Many different belief systems can give rise to many different realities.

Nezman knows the reality he or she is experiencing is only one arbitrary interpretation among many. Nezman takes control of W1 body and W2 components as much as it is possible. Eventually, Nezman looks at W1 and W2 as a ladder to reach the highest W3 experiences.